Thursday, May 12, 2022

Take 2, World

I haven’t been on in a while. I let the fear, impostor syndrome, and the world pulled me away from God. Over the last few years, before the two years of the pandemic, I got pulled away from God and humanity even more than I already was. The world has gone dark and scary. I have blocked myself from the news. I try to only have the positive side of the world on my social media feed. All of the media outlets are showing the scary side of the world to the point of bringing on the start of an anxiety attack. This information then pulls me down to a lower energy frequency. It’s hard to get back up to the higher frequency and closer to God. We need to start taking little steps out of the hole of darkness. Even with the little steps, there will be times when we move one step forward and three back. 

It’s finally time to get back in touch with God and myself and what makes me happy. Here are some of the steps I have taken to move closer to God and my higher frequency. I got back into my writing and reading. I found a meditation that God showed me. I started to think outside the box more and vocalize it to friends. I took a deep look at things that make me happy and comfortable with who I am. 

What are some of your hobbies that make you happy? Have you figured out a meditation that works for you or if one works for you at all? During the last few years, I was also on a journey of finding out who I was as myself and my purpose in this world. During one of my times of self-examining. I was wondering why I can’t meditate the same way as everyone else does. I then heard God tell me to breathe in the good energy with the waves and blow out the bad energy with the waves. I have one other meditation that works with the colors of the chakras. I like to do it when am struggling really bad with the negative force that keeps coming my way. The media and the world is a scary world today. Makes it harder to stay positive and happy or content. There are a few things we can do to keep the high healthy vibration in our life.

The things we need to stay away from to help keep us at higher energy levels. Stop reading or watching the news, and most of the social media (shootings,  the animal abuse, the war, the list goes on and on…). The next big challenge I had to face was staying away from negative and narcissistic people. I know we all have someone that we dread hanging out with. This could be family, friends, work and the list goes on. I know there are some things you just can’t completely walk away from. My family, friends, and jobs have all given me this feeling at some point in my life. I have learned to set bounders when I need to be around people and for how long I can be with them. We need to learn to listen to our gut instinct. You need to trust your body because it gives you signs that something is off. This is also hard because sometimes you just can’t walk away. I keep working on setting bounders to keep my body from getting pulled into the negative energy.


Over the last few years, I have taken a deep dive into my past and present. I have learned a lot about myself during this self-examining period of time. From why I do things the way I do,  Found out what type of Myer Briggs I am.  Reading up and doing research on being an INFJ writer and person. Figuring out things that have happened in the past and how they shaped me into who I am today. Let alone the things that are happening in the world. Since these new discoveries, I have decided it is time to start to be me and follow my dreams. The blog is going to start up again.  I’m working on my writing and things I can do to write. Nobody may ever see my words and thoughts but I know that God is and he will bring my words to the right people at the right time. I can hear my parents and other people in the world telling me am stupid, crazy, fake, and the list goes on and on. I have worked hard to deal with imposter syndrome and fear. I breathe in the good energy and blow out the bad with the waves. I’M A WRITER.


I’M A WRITER

Wow, those 3 little words are so easy to say, but following and doing them is a totally different ball. I know that so many people understand what those 3 little words mean. Changing the word “Write” to any other creative way is also going to put fear and impostor syndrome in you. I’m taking steps to follow my dreams. I know there will continue to be good and bad days. Life isn’t easy! It’s time to have Faith in Myself and in God. I know he has a plan for me. I know there are people that don’t believe in God.  I know my way of thinking about God is different from the other people that believe in God. I’m pretty sure everyone believes in some form of Higher spirit. 


I’m going to work on making sure my Faith is stronger than my fear. 

I’m going to change this blog to following my dreams and being a writer. I will post some of my older works as I go through them and see if they are right for this blog now. 

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